'twas the night before christmas.

you are the wonder that keeps the stars apart. (tidbits written on napkins and found in pockets over the last year.) happy holidays everyone. i hope youre all well, and even if you arent i hope tomorrow brings you all you could wish for. ;)

i, however am anxiety ridden. the escapism of my dreams is now an apartment that keeps me locked inside. to the love that ive left my conscious. its not my situation to be affected by so why are my dreams affected by him as well? i cant breathe when i step into the shower, i tasted the blood off of the walls. sat on the ledge and watched the water bounce off of the tiles until it turned cold. goosebumps on my skin are tiny armies of hope fighting in my heart.

merry christmas. im high as hell.

xo. 12/24.