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I hate people. I hate everyone around me. so. much.

why are people so fake to me. why do you make me latch onto you. why did you do that to me. i love you so much. i loved you more than anyone, I could've never loved myself as much as I loved you.

you made me depend on you. you made me think I could depend on you. you fed my thoughts, you let them grow strong. i finally felt special.

and you're so different now. you arent the person I met. you arent the person I looked up to, the person I was so happy to talk to, the person that I thought was different.

you just make me sad now. you make me angry. you've filled me with so much rage and it swells up my heart to feel that way. i was so happy about you. i couldn't help but talk about you to everyone. i loved you.

and for whatever reason.

i still do.

i still love you.

you were a best friend.

a brother.

a mother.

what happened?