IM BACK AFTER NEARLY A YEAR !! UPDATE

I know that no ones gonna read this anyway but i just wanted to post an update on my relationship any my overall mental state, and everything that has changed. (im sorry for possible typos)

So me and my boyfriends are still toether, its been a year AAAA we r so in love haha and everythings better than ever between us :3 i even got over his stupid ex. the last time i talked about her here, i wanted to sound like a normal mentally well person, but the truth is that i've been obssessing over that girl quite a LOT at the time, bc of how long their relationship lasted (even tho it was shit but still), but i already got over her bc i mean, we're together longer then they were, which was my main issue why i was obsessing over her in the first place. and also the fact that their relationship was shit long before they actually broke up, and out relationship is like at its peak rn and i honestly cant seee it ending enytime soon bc of how good of a pair we are together and how well we work and help eachother and communicate and everything. tommorow is christmas again and we r still so deeply in love. i could never wish for anyone else, he treats me so well. infact, he raised my standarts so high, im afraid that if we ever break up(we wont) and i'll try finding someone new, no one is gonna satisfy my needs like he does so im just gonna be misserable forever. 

i bought him rlly expensive marshall headphones for christmas, im rlly excited. i think i know what i'll get from him for christmas but im not really sure. 

christmas break makes me so happy !!! filip said we can buy lots of weed and snacks and just binge watch lord of the rings the whole time, (since its rlly cold) while hes gonna sleep at my place the whole christmas break x3 !! which is an absolute dream come true honestly

i also got much deeper in the goth community and learned tons of new stuff and got way more into it. i already have multiple clothes that i gathered though thrifting in my town or online on vinted, and i can really say that i have a really beautifull wardrobe. infact, im getting an extremely beautiful ''gothic'' dress for christmas that my mom bouht on emp, so it was pretty expensive too. i also got new STEEL boots that im absolutely inlove with. my hair is also rly long rn and probably the healthiest its ever been, which im really happy about.

im at a new school rn, and i have a class full of awesome people, i made so many frends, my best friends also go to the same school along with my boyfriend so our whole group of four is basically almost always together, which is so nice. 

the way my life is rn, is definately the best and happiest its ever been in my teenage years, and i couldnt be more grateful. that is also a sentence i'd never tought i'd say.