forgetting about this website and where I have been

I joined this website a couple of years back and I have only just remembered this account. it has been about two years. I'm no longer 15,18 next year and im in my 2nd year of college. 

it's the christmas holidays and I'm just currently bored so I thought I would do a blog,god I wish I was one of those emo teens from the mid 2000s. lot's have changed since I made this account, no longer in a relationship and I've changed most things about me lol

maybe in 10 years time if this website is still up I might see this,I wonder where I will be.if it was 13 year old me he would say dead but hopefully not tbh,I want to go to uni and afterwards fuck knows really, I want to become a tattoo artist but I don't think im good enough,if not I'll just go into teaching which i know will ruin my mental state but i would rather that then land up on the streets yk.

its christmas eve eve right now,I'm nervous and excited for christmas. one, it is my last year as a kid and having christmas,it hasn't dawned on me i will be 18 soon,time goes too quick right now it scares me. secondly,it is at my new house since I moved this year,itll be fun but so much,too much has happened this year,it has been draining,just one thing after the other.

i think for next year I really want to push myself with my art and see what I can do.also I want to get back into playing music,something I havent done a lot this year due to college or just constantly being busy and then tired because of being hella busy. I have projects to do,compettitions for art and photography and whatever gets thrown at me next year,I am just exhausted.

idk im just well bored rn and the last thing I want to do is work on any of my course work

ill probably come back here and there,if i remember lmao