Generations - Entry 2

22/12/2024

Thankfully, today was somehow even more boring than yesterday. When I woke up, again at 1PM, nobody else was in the house except my dog. My family had left to go visit my step mum's parents and didn't even bother to tell me or wake me up. I guess that says a lot about me, right?

I've been thinking a lot of my family, especially my half sister. If something does come back extremely wrong in my blood test results, how'll she react? She's only three, will she even understand at all? She already talks about how she misses me all the time because I'm always in my room and it feels like I'm already dead in the eyes of my family. Though if I were to die soon, I wouldn't be leaving behind anything extraordinary. I'm seventeen, have never worked, never been in any clubs, always had a small group of friends. I guess my family would miss me, but when my family dies and generations pass I'll be completely forgotten, not apart of future generation's memories. I guess this is why I want to to start blogging, because at least then I'll be leaving SOMETHING behind, something for future generations to look back on and remember me by. Maybe some of them will relate to my entries, maybe some will find me silly, which'll probably be the case for most.

I'm enjoying blogging so far, even if I've only done one entry not including this one. It kind of feels good to let all of my thoughts out. My days are usually quite boring or uneventful but who cares? It feels nice to tell the void about my day.

I think I'm going to start posting some pictures from my camera once I get film developed. I went on a boat trip a couple of months ago and I have some photos of it that I'll share if I can.

I don't really know what else to say for this entry, so I guess I'll just leave it as it is instead of trying to drag out its length. Stay safe.

Love,
Heather