journal blog?

2024/12/22

Finally had the energy to make a profile for my spacehey! I want to add a sketchbook somehow, but I'm not sure. I do know I can insert images!

That's something I drew on MS Paint, I so wanna draw more scenery. It's fun and easy when you actually use reference from time to time, but it's also like really relaxing to draw without any reference so you just have to make it make sense. 

Today's chores: Mopped all rooms, unpacked some kitchen tools and rearranged the wardrobe and storage in the hallway, made really yummy american pancakes. Tomorrow, hopefully, I'll draw traditionally again. My sketchbook is so empty!

2024/12/23

Sadly I didn't do as I planned, still draw digitally... But I'm really excited for tomorrow, I'm going to my best friend's place and we'll bake cookies and brownies and watch christmas movies! We're not christians, but we do like cozy winter. But there's been NO snow like at all where I'm at, which is weird since I live in Sweden. Today's chores: Not much, laundry and dishes.

2024/12/24

The hangout went alright, there's something up with my best friend and his mom but I'm not gonna force him to tell anything or whatever. Like he doesn't wanna talk freely with me around her, but I totally feel him. I'm always gonna be on his side, 4lifers!! Anyways, now I'm eating yummy(sorta) cookies, and dipping with some warm milk! The only problem is we got a lil impatient and put in the melt butter too early, it was supposed to be luke warm not HOT, so the cookies took extra long to bake and still came out like gooey and all. But it's edible, kind of. Gonna edit my profile a lil more and then finish an English assignment. I've been post-poning it for like half a year... Today's chores: Just do the homework.

2024/12/25

Haven't done much today, it was chill since it was just me and my brother at home. I got to sleep until 12PM, usually I get woken up super early like 8PM even if it's the weekend or we're on holiday. Actually, I've just been on youtube and spacehey all day. Today's chores: Mopped all the rooms in our old apartment, hopefully I won't have to go clean there again.

2024/12/26

Today I was supposed to pick up grandma with dad but the battery ran out. Grandpa helped turn the car back on and dad drove me and grandma home, she visited for an hour or so and then she left with mom. I feel bad that I was just staying in my room the whole time, but there wasn't much to tell anyways. No that was a lie there WAS a lot to tell like the millions of things I'm planning to do after I graduate and my graduation party that she's going to and blah blah blah. I could've talked about literally anything but I was being an awkward bum and just waited til it was time to say goodbye to her. She's really nice, I need to visit her more and help out clean her and grandpa's apartment. They said they needed the help and I told them just to call anytime they need me, but never did. That ALWAYS happens to me for some reason, like if I tell someone "just call when you're free" THEY NEVER DO. And then I think I'm being too pushy if I ask about it, even if months later. Like "hey, remember this!? Do you still" STILL WHAT? I don't even know what to say. I mean I know, but at the same time I just don't want to. But why not? I do like being useful, but I at the same time do everything I can to get away from any social interactions. I might not be an extrovert after all, I hate not knowing what kind of person I am so I've done that weird MBTI test over and over since like 2021. It's the same results but it switches between INFP-t and ENFP-t every time! 

WHATEVER, anyways. I slept for like I don't even know how long actually it felt like a really long time since last night(morning) I fell asleep at 2AM and then had to wake up at 8AM. Then when I got home I just got so so so tired and I fell asleep like 3PM-ish. I'VE SAID "LIKE" 35 TIMES IN JS THIS ONE PAGE. Gonna check how many in my private journal. 233 times in my 45 page journal. That's not even a lot of pages for something I've been writing on since 2020. Who the fuck said journaling is good for your mental health? I mean, it's good for practice writing maybe?? I've kept diaries and journals since I was 9 or something, but I never really questioned why. I suppose it's nice to actually have your thoughts somewhere. Today's chores: Drove around a little with dad, dishes, unpacking the last few boxes for me and my sister's room. Should I practice on my grammar?

2042/12/28

I'm so tired, I didn't even like notice the time until now. Today's chores: I don't even remember. Oh yeah I do. I bought gifts for my cousins and I cleaned the walls in our old apartment, now it's completely finished and we never gotta go back. Alright now I'll get some sleep GOONIGHT.

2024/12/29

Ok so my cousins loved the gifts me and my brother bought for them. I KNEW THEY WOULD!! Not really I was super uncertain since like they kept saying "he's too old for NERF!! he won't like it!!!" man he's like 12 or something that is NOT too old for nerf. I'd be super happy if someone bought me a nerf gun and I'm way past 12 ykwim?? PLUS it was a three in one package. Apparently I also got just the perfume that the eldest wanted, some YSL perfume that she was planning on buying. And it was really hard to find the Frozen toy for the youngest but she loved it too, I'm glad I could be good for something for once. Genuienly it was shocking to see Wish toys, but NO Frozen!?!? Especially with how a lot of kids here love Frozen a lot more than other Disney movies. Idk about how the last two felt about their gifts, but I'm sure they liked their gifts too. I was really just overthinking since we only met like every once a year or two, I wasn't sure what they liked. Plus they've grown so much!! Really they're just kids, I don't want them growing up too quickly. They have really good parents, it's great to see that and I'm really happy for them. To have a good childhood and all. Today's chores: Laundry again, dishes and nothing more. Here's some yummy pancakes w whipped cream and jam I made while mom and dad was away!! It was actually supposed to be one of those super fluffy Japanese pancakes since I already tried American a lot of times, but I didn't whisk the egg whites enough, and I think I didn't put enough baking powder...

2024/12/31

Holy shit. Last day of 2024!!! 2025 sounds weird, I'll be 20 in 11 months and 7 days... It's 2AM right now. Can't sleep, but I'll sleep lots soon so I'll have the energy to stay awake tomorrow. Alright now I'm too tired to write more. Today's chores: can't remember.

2025/01/01

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I've nothing special to tell, here's the last picture i took on my camera 2024

so blurry.... oh well. Today's chores: Recycling, cleaning the kitchen.

2025/01/10

Haven't been able to update this blog SO many times, might just drop it... I'm so tired today, I really need to fix my sleep schedule. Chores: can't remember