December update

     Hey... so if you've noticed IM NOW 21 XP  Didn't have a party, went out to eat w my friend and will again w my parents next week.

     (Had to say that real quickly) So anyway omg 2025 is so near 0.0 I feel I have a weird view on new years resolutions because I try to live by the motto "If not now then when?" And so I always try and do what I want when I want which can go good but I mainly struggle with motivation. I get comfortable being in an "easy" routine and I'll avoid doing stuff I [actually] want to, like a new hobby or something creatively draining in fear of "failing" (cuz u can't fail at Art or whatevs) and so that I will admit. 

But I had a good month or so this year where I was hard-core studying and it was really the first time I've ever studied in my life and it was actually kinda fun? And so next year I would like to really learn something and study it, possibly French because I took 4 years in highschool and who doesn't wanna be a polyglot? So if I have to say what my new years resolution is, it's that.

     Speaking of doing new things I am kinda "spontaneous" ? In the way that I bounce between hobbies and also change my style too. (Undiagnosed adhd? It just might be!) And so recently I've been really liking the whole whimsy goth/hippie vibe. I have a decent sized closet because I like dressing in so many different styles but I'm having a hard time coming up w outfits from things I already own :/ I can buy some but buying things recently have me feeling guilty. I've kept many non-essential buys to an all time low due to the boycott (#FreePalestine) and so I've maybe bought 5 articles of clothing this year. I'm also planning on moving and so thats also why I'm trying to not buy alot. 

     Speaking of speaking of new things I started playing Helldivers so if you play too add me on stream 👀 and also I started Darkest Dungeon today which is pretty fun too! Hard.. but fun (I'm broke and all of my recruits are stressed out 😅 haha I'm struggling)

     So yeah that's what's happening in my life or whateva. What's going on with you? Feel free to comment I would like to chat :3