Being a floater friend is hard... :(

This is just a rant btw :/

Being the floater friend is so wacky. It's like I have friends but also not really if you get what i mean???? Like I hang out with these people I'm invited to things and that but also, I'm putting in all the effort. Nobody texts me first, nobody checks in on me, it's like I don't even exist until someone needs me. I'm probably being dramatic but it's just like I'm nobodies first choice. I will never be someone's best friend, and I don't get it. I try so hard but there's always someone who's closer. I want to be someone's first, is that too much to ask? If you feel the same way, trust you're not alone. DM me :)) maybe we can be friends???