ANOTHER dude said he has a CRUSH on me.

FUUUUUUCK

WHY AGAIN WHYY

I DONT THINK PEOPLE WOULD BELIEVE ME IF I SAID 4 GUYS THIS SCHOOL YEAR IN SOME WAY SHAPE OR FORM ASKED ME TO BE THEIR GF WHETHER DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY

AND THIS GUY DOESNT EVEN GO TO MY DAMN SCHOOL. HE GOES TO MY OLD HIGHSCHOOL.

i hate my old highschool. and if youve skimmed across some of my older blogs, you may or may not know why, but i'll just reitterate it

basically i dated this guy who had mental issues and it was extremely toxic in both ways and we treated eachother equally horrible and the relationship ended with him  falsely calling cps on me because he was mad i broke up with him . yeah. so i switched schools after that. but lets talk abt what happened earlier today.

while walking home from school, i just got off the bus, and theres this guy who is walking far in front of me, and keeps looking back at me. tbh i just assumed it was because i was wearing my bright neon green gir hoodie, and as USUAL i get a lot of stares so i didn't think much of it.

im waiting on the corner of the block to cross the street, and this guy comes up to me and asks "Uh..hey..do you go to (Old highschool)?"  and i say "I used to...why ru asking??" and so this guy starts to explain his lore

basically from what i rememeber, he had a HUGE MASSIVE crush on me in school, and would be like the secret side character in the shadows (Think, "AND BUMBLEBEE! or Profiley from BFB") and got weird vibes from my ex in general, rightfully so. he would always stay nearby just in case if something bad happened or rose up, because he didnt have a good feeling abt my ex at all. he started asking me if i was single too, and offered to walk me halfway home, so we did

he asked me what happened between me and my ex and i just said it was toxic and he has mental issues like depression that kinda impacted our relationship, and i had anger issues bcs of him failing to  communicate and me just feeling so stuck in the relationship. he was actually really nice and spoke respecfully... but i cant help but feel skeptical. and for good reason.

What if he's secretly on my exs' side? he could be plotting against me and just asking me these questions just to tell  my ex about me, like where i live, my current internet status, my everything.. i regret even telling him the slightest bit of information on me. the worst thing being that i actually dont have a girlfriend. he's the only guy that i told that im single and am getting over a breakup. i want to kms. now i cant use that card. why the FUCK did i say i was single. why did i say that WHY DIDNT I SAY I HAD A GIRLFRIEND THAT COULDVE SAVED ME, AND IF IT TURNS OUT HE IS PLOTTING AGAINST ME, IM GONNA BE STUCK IN THE SAME SPOT I WAS 11 MONTHS AGO. i dont. want to go back to that. ever.

im so upset. i just want to be unbothered. i enjoy looking the way i do, but is it worth it if it brings somany unwanted people to my doorstep? 

4. 4 guys.

-Cozmite