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Okay so ive just finished arguing with someone who used to be my best friend. Important to note that it is my fault that we werent friends anymore, i was a shitty friend and i made her feel bad and i 100% deserve everything thats happening to me.
Anyway, my ex best friend agreed to let me vent to her and to try and point me in the right direction with my life. Its been going pretty well so far, ive made decent progress but im always scared of letting her and the rest of my old friend group down. During the vent i mentioned that i was friends with most of the group again, which she found odd. Apparently, the main girl i thought i was friends with didnt actually like me and was just keeping me around bcs she could be bothered to tell me to go away, which is something i had worried she was doing BEFORE i fell out with that group. Anyway long story short, i had an argument with my ex bsf about it because she thinks i shouldve picked up on the hints (which from my pov didnt exist). Im also probably in for an argument with the other friend in person at school tomorrow. I know what i want to say but i dont know if i can say it. She made me feel like she didnt really care about my feelings for the entire time we were friends and i just felt disregarded by her most of the time. I dont know if ill be able to say that without breaking down though and i couldnt take that. I feel pathetic for getting myself into this mess and worse that i cant see a clear way out. I wish i wasnt so stupid and could maintain friendships like a normal person i dont know what to do any advice would be appreciated although i dont mind if nobody sees my incoherent ramblings <3
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Aiko
I really hope it gets better for you! I don't really have advice but maybe you should try to make new friends? And if it gets worse with the people you argued with, you should try to ignore them, no need to feel bad tho! I really hope everything gets better :(
Ty <3 ive just done my last day of school for the year so im gonna see if theres any way to make amends over the holidays before i have to face them again
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You must respect the boundaries they've made that might be the amends? But maybe you should face them or leave them a message? Or if you're feeling like writing on paper you could do letters?
by Aiko; ; Report
Im getting better with boundaries its the making amends thats troubling me
by ⛧ Scarlett ⛧; ; Report
Everyone makes mistakes! Nobody's perfect but I'm sure you're going to make amends!
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I MEANT BE ABLE TO AHH SORRY..
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