Since I was little they call me weird, it's no lie that I'm not normal, but I don't see the need to emphasize it every minute. 

It is annoying that they mess with my physique and think of it as if it were an inanimate object, I have come to see how my face is deformed in the mirror, it must be that the hurtful words have already taken effect. 

Now I feel that I am not me, the reflection I see is a distorted and deformed spectrum of my insecurities.

I'm weird, I know that, but sometimes I wish I was normal, you know, have a group of friends, live a stable life and feel comfortable in your environment. Normal...

It's not normal that I spend my time in my room, listening to music and typing on my computer. 

It doesn't feel good to realize that it's 4 A.M and I'm still on the computer, watching, reading or just nothing and I'm not sleepy. 

Being a teenager is not cool, it's not aesthetic.

It makes me laugh when an eccentric or weird character becomes popular and everyone wants to be him. 

It's not nice to be weird, it's not aesthetic, and it's certainly not a reason to be better than anyone else.

People think that having mental problems is cute, and they fake them (in many cases) to feel accepted; there is nothing more horrible than doing things to have the approval of strangers.

I feel isolated from the other teenagers in my classroom.

Seeing that most of them only think about falling in love and living out of heartbreak...falling in love is nice but basing your personality on it is kind of disgusting in my opinion. 

I have generic tastes, but my god how hard it is to find someone with something in common with them.

I hate this place, the only good thing is my home, my hiding place from people.

Very few people or almost no one from where I study know where I live and it feels so good, it's very private. 

My home is a unique place in the world for me, I don't want anyone to come in and see it.

Here I can be me, here I can leave my disguise of always being happy.

I can be anonymous, I can be a ghost, I can feel free.

But many times I get tired of so many walls and windows. 

I like to go out and walk, but I'm afraid of what could happen to me, I'm not used to go out, not since the covid.

I want to be locked up because going out scares me and I want to go out because I get tired of being locked up.