leanna firestone!! (and how her songs connect to my mental state)

somehow, every time there has been a new leanna firestone release, it has perfectly matched up with my mental state [at the time of release]. it’s happened seven times now!! (that i know of)

• you just didn’t like me that much came out a few months after i broke up with my long-term boyfriend and he admitted to cheating on me four times over the course of our relationship. like damn, he just didn’t like me that much. 
  
• the public displays of affection ep came out when i developed a new crush (this action will have consequences) and decided that he was going to be the new love of my life and would correct everything that had gone wrong for me. 
• the good grief ep came out at a time when a.) i learnt my entire class hated me (yippee!) and b.) i was thinking an awful lot about my ex-best friend and how much i missed him, which inspired one of my favourite poems and what the themes that i began centring my work around in my final year of university.
• cool! came out when i got into attack on titan for aforementioned man (this action will have consequences part 2) (if anyone wants to hear the full story it’s so pathetic) and at a time when i was doing a lot of self-reflection around how much i’ve changed since i started at this university (i’m not mysterious anymore, but i’m still cool, cool, cool)
• black box warning came out just after i learnt aforementioned man got a girlfriend!! and i started doing more self-reflection (and potentially reading too much into things) (i’m the bite you can’t stomach so you spit it out, the girl you’re kinda embarrassed to tell your friends about)
• becoming unbecoming came out when i was in a depression rut and felt like an academic failure. not much else to say on that one, it’s pretty self explanatory. 

which brings us to now. the release of keeping score. for context, at the beginning of the month, just after my birthday, i told my friends that i was done pining after this guy because he has a girlfriend!!! (who is so beautiful and seems so nice!!) i’ve wasted my entire year it feels like yearning over him, and i need to accept that nothing is ever going to happen. 

and on friday this song comes out. which is about frustrations with an ex lover, hating them until you see them again, until they convince you to go back to them?? (which is exactly what happened last year, but that’s part of the attack on titan story and it’s pathetic!!)

it literally is not important or interesting in anyway, i’ve just been thinking about it hehe~

ttyl!!