my mom is going to make me go crazy

okay so tell me why she expects me to get better mentally right? thats not bad but she literally takes away any possible way I can cope healthily,, she took away my phone, pc, switch, wii u, ipad, applewatch, and basically everything,, nd now i cant talk to my friends, distract myself from            wanting to end it all, listen to music, draw digitally, play games, or really do anything, so all i can    really do is sit at home, draw traditionally (but ts gets boring after a bit of hours) sleep, cry and      just think about ending it all. WHICH IS WHAT WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE PREVENTING.. BUT OKAY..  and she thinks the source of all my problems is the internet.. when it's really her, and she doesnt    realise this bc shes a narc. and i wish she would atleast change her ways and try to talk things        through instead of blaming me for hurting her because i'm hurting myself. like ts doesnt make        sense, instead of taking my stuff, we should get to the root of the problem and see what is actually causing it, rather than isolating me. because the last thing someone who's suicidal needs is to be  isolated. i'm sorry.                                                                                                                                                                       ! ty for reading !                                                                      I had to get this off my chest to strangers,, mb for the mini trauma dump (?)