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my life is easily one of the most meaningless in existence. I don't understand why I am here just wasting space and being depressed. I feel like if a person doesn't want to be here, they should have the option to not be. painlessly. why can't we choose that? is that so bad? why are we forced to exist in this miserable universe we've created for ourselves?
- I can't remember not feeling this way. even as a child I really didn't care to live. I never had any extensive plans for myself, career plans, never dreamed of having a family. I simply didn't expect to be here. But, I'm twenty four, almost twenty five & i'm still here. Still don't know what i'm doing -- but i'm here. recently i've been filling up my time on this excuse of a planet with doing whatever I can to feel nothing at all. spoiler alert, feeling nothing at all feels out of this world. no pain, no sadness, just living in the moment. a very euphoric moment. I wish I was wrong about that. I chase that every single day. my body is eager for that moment of questioning my being at all. am I alive? am I dying? straddling the line of life and death, I fight a senseless tug of war battle with my thoughts
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Lily Flores🌺
your life isn't meaningless, could be that you are not finding joy in your life because you keep walking down that road of pitch darkness basically a walking dead in this earth. Why not change that road you keep walking in your daily life, let the light shine in you, bring living life into your soul and you will become the happiest being with purpose, we all have a purpose in this earth, God is real weather you don't want to face it or accept that real truth Jesus Christ is our only savior and key to real living with purpose in our daily lives he is the one true feeling you been desiring to have in your heart, mind and soul. this ain't about what the world says because they do not know God. You must know him on your own and it will amaze you like never before. This careless world will never make us feel the desires we really want fulfilled it just vanishes in seconds... Christ who is our God loves you that he gave up his life for you, tell me how is this not with purpose for us in this era we living? Here take some words of wisdom for your life, soul & heart; For God so loved the world, that he gave his begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life John 3:16. For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord Romans 6:23. I can do all things through Christ which strengthened me Philippians 4:13.
Dead
I feel this everyday :( I expected to be dead at 21 now im 23 and Idk what the fuck to do with my life. I just work and realistically do nothing besides get high all day.. I assume one day ill just be on the news as another statistic dead of an overdose that I finally dont survive.
-- I wish I didn't relate to this but I feel you dude, staying stoned until I decide to give up -.-
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at least we got our weed! :)
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& this new website of sorts!!
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yesss! ☺
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