school is so awful I hate it

school was awful today, for the 6th or something time this season I couldn't stop crying when I arrived, I'm scared people will start saying I'm a crybaby like how they did for another student, I feel like they're all staring at me and talking to their friends, I don't know though cause I can't even bring myself to look up, I'm scared people will see my face and laugh, I'm glad my glasses fog up when I cry so people can't see my eyes but then I can't see

we also have some stupid Christmas concert coming up and it hurts so much, we have to stand up for so long, it hurts my whole body, I can barely even breathe cause there's so many people in a tiny practice room too, I can't even put my arms to my sides cause it's so cramped in there, I wish we had a choice to do it but we're being forced, I'm not even allowed to wear my hat during practice which makes me really upset cause it's a comfort item for me

I wish they gave us more free will for these stupid things, I promise you doing a Christmas concert and learning how to play hurling is not a critical life skill to have, id rather do math than do those