my creepily osessive hostage friendship.

This has been happening for years.

This is probably gonna sound majorly fucked up, but I'm stuck in a hostage friendship.

 I met this girl in like, middle school or whatever, and she thinks we're like "bffls" kinda like that one invader zim episode but way more complex. It's so much more than that. It's like she wants to BE me. I'll cut my hair, the next day she cuts HER hair. I'll mention I like something, and all of a sudden that thing is her entire personality!! She started dressing like me, talking like me, doing her hair like me, and it's fucking EXHAUSTING! She's the type of girl to wear a blinding white $8,000 wedding dress to YOUR wedding. This girl knows ZERO personal boundaries. She sits suffocatingly close to me, invites herself to anything she is not involved with, eats my snacks without asking, in fact she will TELL me she's gonna eat my snacks. Same with my other belongings. If she's ever at my house, it's like I'm being raided by the feds. She goes through everything!! Drawers, bins, walls, bags, backpacks, purses, boxes, SKETCHBOOKS AND JOURNALS (I literally had to stop using a journal because she kept reading mine and asking me questions about it in public later) among anything and everything else in her line of sight. Do not tell this girl anything, or the entire school INCLUDING TEACHERS will hear about it, but totally twisted into a different story. Saying she is obsessed with me is quite the understatement. I've communicated SO MANY times about what I am and am not comfortable with, but she does not gaf. like a single fuck. Not to mention, her parents are low-key kind of insane....Like her mom will borderline FORCE me to hang out with her. Like, if I say I don't want to hang out with her, she'll ask MY mom, and if my mom says no, this girl will MAKE her mom make me hang out. Not to mention, she will literally quietly chase me after school, get INTO my car, IN MY OWN SEAT and TELL, NOT ASK my mom to give her a ride home, EVEN IF I TELL HER SHE CAN'T GET A RIDE BECAUSE I AM BUSY. The amount of times I've been late to things because she does not know how to take no for an answer is INSANE. My mom feels bad, and I don't blame her, but that's only because my mom thinks she has no friends. THIS GIRL HAS SO MANY FRIENDS AND a BOYFRIEND. Go be obsessive over HIM!!! She also is like really....weird around MY boyfriend. Like always mentioning my ex around him or when he's brought up, asking ME to invite HER over to HIS house???? What?? And during homecoming this year, she kept nudging him OUT of the way from me?? Near the end of the night she fucking PUSHED him, like PUSHED WITH HER HANDS LIKE A TODDLER out of the way. When I tell you how MAD I was. I literally had to leave or I WOULD have thrown hands. Like you can fuck with me all you want, whatever, but do NOT even THINK about fucking with my friends like that. And I can't call her out or she will go fucking nuts, and I am TERRIFIED of her mom. They are borderline stalkers. This has been going on since the 8TH FUCKING GRADE with ZERO sign of stopping anytime soon. Earlier this week she asked me if I wanted to stay in a hotel room with HER for MY birthday??? Like, not to mention staying out of state the ENTIRE week AFTER that. Like ????? Is this an original experience or am I just insane??? I said NO because I have plans on my birthday, and this girl literally asked me to CANCEL my plans to hang out with her?????? So I'm like, "Oh I can't do that because my family will be upset if I cancel on them. I do this every year with them." And she says "Oh that's okay, I'll go ask your mom to see what she says!!" The. Fucking. Audacity. Even my mom is getting tired of her constantly wanting me to sleep in a room with her out of state???? Like for months she's been asking me to go camping in the same tent with her and her parents in MAINE. like FIVE hours away???? oh HELL no! Her parents low-key sketch the hell out of me. Whenever her mom would make me sleep over, I'd wake up in the middle of the night to them WATCHING me??????? HELLO???? Not to mention they drink and blaze WHILE driving, soooooo, that's cool, I guess?? My mom is starting to get concerned over MY safety over it because why does she and her family want me out of state for a week so bad??? My mom literally is starting to wonder if they're gonna kidnap me because that CAN'T be a normal thing of somebody to KEEP asking. She's also SOOOOO spoiled, which usually I don't mind, as long as you KNOW you're privileged, and that OTHER people are literally living paycheck to paycheck. She thinks everyone else is higher mid-class just like her. Like anything she wants, she gets from her parents, and she expects everyone else to get her expensive stuff too. She sent me a list for what she wants for her birthday one time, and everything was like $100 or over???? I literally can't pay my own WATER bill sometimes, let ALONE buying a $400 variant of a video game console she ALREADY HAS IN A DIFFERENT COLOR.  I've tried distancing myself from her SO MANY TIMES, but it just DOES NOT WORK. I really don't understand what she sees in me. I'm just....some regular joe schmoe, why is she SO into me? It's almost like she is in love with me or something, and it's almost dehumanizing in a way since she doesn't respect me and my boundaries. I feel like I'm being paparazzi'd but at least when I actually WAS being paparazzi'd by bullies, (long story) they kept their distance and respected my BOUNDARIES. I don't expect this to stop (even AFTER I graduate/drop out) because she knows everything about me. Things I have never told her, like where I live, (yeah, I never told her my address, but one day without my knowledge, her mom drove her to my house, and she just walked in to "hang out" with me) she found my hiding spot in the morning before school, she found me and my mom on Facebook messenger (my name on Facebook and Insta is NOT my real legal name everyone knows me by), she memorized both of my car and van's licence plates, she knows all my classes, and where I sit in said classes, and I am dead certain that when she is allowed to have a phone, she will find me on EVERY social media. Even my puppet accounts. It's starting to get scary.  

I've held this in for so long because I feel so fucked up for feeling this way, but if you were in the same situation as me, you'd probably feel about the same. It's so tiring, and it's mentally draining me.