Winter

my winter started pretty well at first! but when it waz my bday, i waz heavily sick :( 

i waz playing with mah 2 dearezt friendz on my bday!! it still makez me happy :3

the january felt silly to me, it waz pretty fazt! and i found my new favourite music band - oingo boingo! <D

at the start of  february i visited really cold place in Russia, Karelia, and i dont even know what snapped me, but i felt extremely sad, i wouldnt say depressed but REALLY sad... this month's start wasnt great, but then it was improving! i found a korean street food cafe which i visited ever since and found a chinese supermarket with bunch of yummy stuff! i still waz listening 2 lapfox songz which i really liked, and speedcore songz :3 this season went OK!

Spring

it doesn't matter anymore what happened there

Summer

after the painful season i was left with hatred, but in a first week of the summer, i felt extreme anger because of someone. first half of june i was struggling, but then i started improving and feeling much better! i was spending time with my friendz, finding new fandomz, music, and gamez! and i alzo got a job az a mailman hehehehe :3 i got 25$ eveyr month

in july, at my sister'z bday (letz call her Froggy), we were talking a walk with my mom, my sister and her friend (letz name her Light) and trying out new street scooterz which can be riden on for a price! and uhhh... when it waz my turn on the scooter i fell from it becauze i mixed up gas and stop button, LOL!! XDD tho, my fav jeans were ruined, and i waz bruised too qwq my mom still didnt fix my pants to this day lol X] maybe at next summer!

lkfaklsdfjkasdf at august i was bedrotting smh :sob: i hate it, like it waz and ok/boring month and nothing much happened ;w;

Autumn

at firzt my september started OK until **it** decided to tell everybody about my past mistakes, which got me almost separated to my friends. instead of confronting me they decided to become a pussy and do it behind my back. but eh, it still ended up me going back to my friends and most of them forgave me, because **it** wasnt a great person too. but then my september has come back to normal and being chill :33 at the lazt day of september my friend, aopto, which waz missing for 1 year came back ^_^

at firzt day of october i felt hysterical lol... after a week aopto left again, but this time forever. i alzo watched haibane renmei on october! i loved it a lot <3 and it alzo snowed at 14th of october! and i found a super cool song called "p.u.n.k girl" :]

here's small story wat happened to me on this october:

ok so i waz normally working az mailman dat day, putting tax paperz into ppl'z mailboxez. and when i waz approaching one of da homez there waz an old man sitting on da bench with a walking stick

he azked me 2 help him 2 go 2 store coz turned out he waz blind

it took me 30 minutez to get him from hiz home 2 store

JUZT TO FIND OUT

HE WANTED 2 BUY VODKA

and then i had 2 get him back 2 him home

AND THEN

HE FUCKING AZKED ME 2 BUY ANOTHER BOTTLE OF VODKA

OFC I DIDNT BUY IT FFS

he wanted 4 me 2 taek da money 2 buy it but then i juzt ran outside, waited a bit and told him they didnt sell it 2 me

and i think he was like, 78 and had possible dementia-

and honestly, it made me sad. imagine living through so much stuff to turn out like this

having so many experiences and memories 2 end up a half-blind grandpa who tells fake stories (apparently they were fake.) and drink vodka

really disappointing and sad

besides how hilarious this story this, it taught me a lesson about human value, especially how old is he and how possibly many things he saw...

but on the next day i found rlly cool song called "pop muzik" heheheheheh

in ANOTHER next day me and my sister Crystal went 2 a mall! i got 2 fortune cookiez and had ice cream ^_^

alzo played viscera cleanup detail with my friend and it waz SUPER AWESOME and watched uncle samsonite XDDD

and on the halloween, my bezt irl friendz went 2 that korean street food cafe i told them about! on our way back we visited chinese supermarket AND MET SOMEBODY WEARING A COOL PUMPKIN OUTFIT :0000 i wish i could add it here!! i think ill add it later

then me and my other 2 friendz (Light and Dark) had a halloween party where we cooked a lot :33 we made super yummy punch bowl and cheesy potato ballz 😋 (silly emoji)

i became friends once more with someone i started to dislike who was it's best friend! but it got a bit spicier at middle of november... turns out Light was manipulating Crystal before and she was also confessing to Dark, besides Crystal being 17 and Dark being like 14-15 years old (theyre both girls). i coudl tell more but im lazzyyyy... overall, my november was chill <D but i had someone in my dream

One more Winter

I'm really happy how this winter is going on right now, nothing bad, like at all... I started listening to more of Russian music (KняZz and KINO). But i wasn't excited for my birthday, but at the same time I was. I hated being 15. I wish I was 14, when i was happier... Maybe someday i'll bee happy once more! i feel content atm :)

Summary:

I was able to improve myself to a better side, understand human value and become emotionally balanced. Besides having weird mood swings (ecstatic jumps(?)) and personality changes and feeling manic, I'm able to overcome this and not make stupid and rushed decisions which I made back in September and Spring. Even though I felt extremely angry because of my past at the end of November, as I said, I don't feel anything towards it now, but I didn't forgive.

1. ]there waz an old man sitting on da bench with a walking