Funeral 12/8/2024

Went to Betsy's funeral today, to be a supportive for him today, weather he needeed it or not.

spoke privately to his mom and dad and thanked them for the son i have.

i hope that if they wanted to, they were reunited  where ever they are.

Country song comes to mind: Shes in love with the boy...talks about how katie would follow tommy anywhere and i feel that comparison...Betsy has her tommy ...just like i have my Jarrid

its been on my mind over the night...i think id die of a broken heart if i lost him. the thought crosses my mind that he has a plot..i keep invisioning that ill be visiting his grave and it saddens me so much..hes the one place ive belonged, i dont feel i belong anywhere.  part of me feels like ineed to find out how much the plot beside him would be...part of me wants to be creamated and put in the casket with him..i know and i agree that once the soul leaves the body its just the shell thats left behind...but in doing this its my way to silently say...this was my person and i dont want to be apart from him. 

To Betsy and Tommy-- Thank you for the son you left me, he's been in my life for most off my life...before i met him i had only been on earth maybe 12 years..and hes been with me in one way or another ever since. Hes been one of the most constant , and reliable people in my life.  He knows that whatever happens ill look for him or watch over him if its at all possible on the other side..and id want him to watch over me as well, and im sure he would if he could.