“Friend”

This is going to be about two friends I’m not going to say their names so I’m going to use emojis

“🎧” The one I can barely call a friend

“🧸” The one I love

First, let’s start with🎧 all she does, is make me uncomfortable, irritated and mad but of course, if I ever tell her about these feelings she would say “I never noticed!” or something like that, I know she has her own problems, but why is that the only thing she talks about it’s always her she only everyone to talk about her and when I try to talk about myself or tell her something personal. She gives brief answers and I feel like I’m just talking to a Wall

But any time it’s about her, I give it my all, and comfort her to the best of my abilities and she says she loves me and she sees me as her best friend, but sometimes I Think she just says that just to talk about herself to me more

That’s honestly, why I stopped telling her about me and my home life because she never understands or doesn’t want to understand but when I’m with🧸 I feel so amazing I feel hurt I feel seen and I feel like I can actually call someone my best friend she’s amazing in every way and we tell each other everything I feel like I can actually be myself around her, unlike when I’m with🎧…. i’m just going to wait until I transfer to a new school that isn’t with🎧 and maybe there I could find friends I can have genuine conversations with instead of just listening and comforting people, because I swear I can’t do this anymore