the man that broke me

how do i stop thinking about him

i caught feelings too fast

i was used

then discarded

like im just a tissue

(like the ones i use to wipe my tears when thoughts of him are too prominet)

i absorbed whatever he told me

submissive to his words, his promises

but now

im just

there

i see him everywhere 

he acts like nothing happened

like he never said those things

and i hate it

i hate how little self respect i have

i hate how easily id let him have me again

above all i hate myself

why dont i hate him?