bulletproof heart yap session from mcr

SO. bulletproof heart is my all time favourite song, it makes me cry bc of how im relating to the song, like wanted to run away from this life, wanting to not be at home, and bla bla bla, wanting my relatives searching for me, wanting someone to save me and more. im relating so MUCH.

when first time i got into mcr was like 1 years ago or something, that was when i got into danger days and bulletproof heart was playing. and im kinda like... "i think i know this song from somewhere." AND OF COURSE. MY DAD ALWAYS PLAYED THAT SONG IN THE CAR WHEN IM 5. little did i know, i fucking hate that song when i was that age. but yeah, what else can i do? I used to be a child who was embarrassed and had difficulty talking to my parents (especially my dad). i just letting bulletproof heart playing everytime we're on the road, and eventually after a couple of years, the song slowly disappearing from my life. i never heard of it again and I've always thought that song was from smashing pumpkins (my dad's favourite band).

years after years passed, im discovering mcr from ptvtt and was like "oh, i like this song Helena" and i started to put that on my playlist and like, im kinda bored of it so I started to listening to the other song which is how i found bulletproof heart. that makes my heart broken af. i miss when my parents used to talk to me and all, now i just wanna go away from this house. i feel sick