lonely

guys idk. im trying my best but why does everybody piss me off???? i love my friends but also they're so draining to be with, everything i do is embarrassing and awkward to them like ok lets stop being friends then? one of them keeps saying their skin is bad when they have porcelain skin (im not even kidding, it SHINES.) while i suffer from acne, its not severe but i hate it so much. i avoid mirrors because my skin looks disgusting. i dont know what i can do to improve it either and she just walks around saying "oh im sooo ugly" when she knows damn well her hair long her eyes big, she got an hourglass, long legs and hairless body? she also had 5 people crush on her in less than a year and im sitting here wondering if anyone would truly love me for who i am. i broke up with my ex cause he lowkey cant match my dramatic-ness. idk i js didnt feel heard. ugh why....