my ex-girlfriend

At 11, I started dating a girl, at that time she was 2 years older than me. I don't consider it a serious relationship, just a strong teenage friendship. We dated for only 3 years, our relationship ended when she committed suicide, at that time I had recently turned 13 years old, and she was 14. I admit honestly, after 2023 my "love" for her disappeared, I didn't even see her as a friend, but I had no choice to leave her since I didn't have any other friends at that time. Honestly, I'm even glad that she died, she was an aggressive and bad person, she always did what she needed, and didn't listen to others. She was constantly jealous of me towards everyone, forced me to communicate only with her, because of this I couldn't communicate with others normally. She had access to my Telegram and TikTok accounts and read my correspondence, but since I was afraid of losing her then I did nothing about it and silently endured. In life, she often beat me "as a joke" and made me do extreme things, for example, once she made me cut her name on my hand with a razor blade, although there is no physical scar anymore, but I think it left a very big mark on my psyche haha.