Ps3, Sleeplessness and numb feelings

Ive spent the last two days or, rather, day and a half, in a self inflicted stupour of dexedrine-graduality.

Essentially getting up at around 8 or 9 in the evening and staying up all night. Last night was the first i spent in true solitude. Id missed it.

Im not long back from a morning walk to sort out my heating. And the extreme but dry Cold and frost sobered me up from my isolation considerably. I feel...more present.

I want to share something that hurt my feelings yesterday. It was a veyr rsd reaction: Cash Converters no longer sell Ps3/360 etc games and i, as it turns out, got one of the last ps3's from that shop.

I felt strangely hurt, i think mostly due to hopw long ive waited to do this again, that is, to colelct ps3 games and jsut generally use one again.

I have, at least, finally ceased constantly playing Fall Of Man, so ill take that in stride.

Throughout the night that just ended i tried, and failed, to have a game of xcom anew. Just had a really unlucky run.

So i spent the night playing Battlefield V. On my pc. That somehow has not broken down yet.

I feel numb. Aware of many thing sim putitng off. And my body hurts in a strange and frustrating sort of way.

Good to get my thoughts out. I dont really know who is fronting currentely. Our mindmap of our system is fractured and systemhood is still new to us.

I am very happy with my spacehey page though and i hope my friends will make ones of their own.