RANT

I just want ONE singular real, meaningful relationship that will last. i mean its not like i dont have people in my life thats been overstayed their welcome i just end up always wanting more and more and more. ughhh i feel so weird and dumb ncuz idk wtf is wrong with me. like can these teenage horomones just shut up already?? im genuinly thinking of turning trans just so i dont have to live like this. i would be so much better off as a man. i just miss my ex but i cheated on him so its my fault ig. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. kms