i will never be complete

i restlessly search for isolation admist my conscious thoughts 

for i am tethered to a chain consistently pulling me 

to the depths of this bottomless pit

where i only reside

whilst i drown in the sorrows near

cradling the miniscule feeling i have left 

reaching high for the nonexistent answer

as the emptiness paralyzes my breath

my head hung low, bathing with the nothingness

as great weight pushes relentlessly against my soul

for i solemnly mourn the death of my bliss 

the death of my innocence, my one true love

brutally beaten from battling the parasitic demon

that's worming itself through my brain

to whisper grotesque secrets into my ear

as it echos towards my aching heart 

blood streams from my eyes in the form of tears

as it gathers all around me, permanently staining my skin

collecting in my mouth, cruelly burning my tongue 

observing as the lingering drops fall swiftly from my chin 

a gentle lullaby calls to me

for my efforts were not enough 

as my dreams float me into the dark, endless sea

guiding me past the demon's blatant bluffs

what am i to do

who am i to be

i will never be complete