My fanfiction!

“When I Feel Crazy, I Hide It and Fall Apart in Public” by MaxIsRice on Archive of Our Own is a fanfiction written by yours truly, Max. 

Honestly when I first started writing this I had no idea what I was doing and just left it alone for a year. I am now rewriting it and actually publishing it!

This fanfiction is about James Potter! I took the idea about this fanfiction from tiktok, ik im unoriginal. James is Bipolar and struggles through self-image and lots of other Bipolar issues. 

When I first saw the idea of James being Bipolar I practically died, because HELLO? We have like 2 good representation in media, and rest is just shit. But I was soon disappointed when I searched up Bipolar James Potter on ao3. Not only most of the writers aren’t even Bipolar, it is extremely inaccurate. I have seen ONE good fic where James has Bipolar II, but none with Bipolar I.

I have made the fic as accurate as possible to how Bipolar I feels. It was harder than I thought to write it, bcz i had to remember very bad memories from my episodes.

And YES it is Jegulus. Regulus/James is a very dear ship to me. One of the first fics I’ve read in the fandom was Only The Brave by Solmussa, and it was just amazing. Regulus has OCD in this fic, and though I do not have OCD, my beta reader does. 

Wolfstar is not a big plot point because (bear with me) I am not a big fan of it. It is boring, and has no interesting ideas except the prank. Ugh.

Partyvan is in this fic! Peter/Barty/Evan is probably my favorite ship after Jegulus and Jegulily. Don’t like it? Don’t read it!

It currently has 4 chapters, and I am currently 5 chapters ahead of publishing. So if you like Marauders, and Jegulus, check it out!

Max, the bad boy supreme iz out!