vent [TW!!]

ive realized im just like him. 

everytime i walk in the halls i look down. i can never look someone in the eye. everyones faces (strangers) have an x or a blur or just something covering them. this hasnt happened after i watched a silent voice it was way before i even knew abt this movie ever since 6th grade when i started getting bullied. its been years living afriad and scared to look anyone in the eye. I also look at my shoes or my hands. i never talk to anyone in class that arent my friends and im scared of who  im becoming. i always pretend to be brave and extroverted but im rlly js a socialy anxoiuos person who's just afraid of everything. i think its cause of my ptsd and trauma from 2019, but ig not. i told somone abt it and abt how i thought it was normal until i watched a silent voice and then i realized its not normal and its porbably just me whos struggling and i rlly want the x's and blurs to go away. i just want to be normal..