Christmas Soon :P

I know I've barely posted EVER but I don't really care. This page is only for me anyways, I don't expect anyone else to be reading these posts. But if anyone is, HI! :D

I've been busy with school (I've probably mentioned that before) so I haven't had any time to myself. It's the end of the term before winter break, Friday is our last day. It's also the week we're most busy, we're finishing our final layouts for our final film, and I have 6 more to do. I should be at school today doing them, I promised myself last week that I'd spend the weekend working but I'm so exhausted ;-; so I decided to take this day to myself and get to school very early tomorrow to lock in and work the whole day.

I'm excited for break though. We didn't get a break in between term 3 and 4 so that's probably why most of us are burnt out. Literally the term ended on a Friday and we went back for term 4 on that Monday, so our "break" was the weekend ;-; SUCKS. But for Christmas we get 3 whole weeks which is insane. My boyfriend is going back to his country (not specifying for privacy reasons) for the 3 weeks, I'm excited for him to see his family, but I'm going to miss him a lot. I got him a present for him to take though, so that'll be cool :3

Besides that, I'm gonna be hanging out with my friends from school over the break, and I have a Christmas party planned with my other friends as well. I haven't been in touch with them much because of how busy I've been, so I'm really fucking hyped to see them again.

I don't know if I mentioned this, but one of my friends (she's part of the friend group that's going to the Christmas party) also is going to my art school. We usually take the train to school every morning and just hangout, but I haven't been taking the train often because of how tired I've been ;-; I plan on taking it tomorrow though, but it wont be the same train she takes since I'm gonna take an earlier one. She's really cool, we have a lot in common and she's pretty badass.

I have a whole bucket list for what I'm gonna do over the break, I'm gonna re-watch some of my favorite shows, finish some games (Alice madness returns, bomb rush cyberfunk, stuff like that), and of course I'll spend time with my family and friends. I'm just happy I wont have to worry about school for 3 weeks.

My friend at school (not the one I go on the train with) has been limiting how much time she spends on her phone. She's been reading a lot more, and she ordered an iPod from the same site I ordered mine on (I kinda convinced her to :P), so now we'll have the same iPod :3 even though hers is black and mine is gray. But anyways, she's motivated me a lot to get off my phone. I've noticed my attention span is shit and I can easily get addicted to my phone, so I uninstalled TikTok and any other social media I don't use, I uninstalled most of my games and anything else that would tempt me to be on my phone for a long period of time. I still watch YouTube in the background while I work, but that's because it helps me focus :P I'll work on that too, but I'm giving myself a pass for this week since I really need to lock in. She told me I should do what she does and get a little notebook to write down things I need to do through out the day, so that's what I did. Does it help? I don't really know, I keep forgetting to use it ;-;

But she's motivated me a lot to get off my phone. She even wanted to get a flip phone at some point but she chose the iPod instead. I love the idea of getting a flip phone because it kinda forces you to be limited to a certain amount of features, but in 2024 it's basically impossible to not use a smartphone. Especially since I transit so much, I need google maps or I'd be cooked. 

These past few weeks I've really been wanting to start playing guitar. I saw on YouTube a live acoustic version of Oblivion by Lo-Pro (I love Pete Murray, he's my favorite vocalist) and the whole performance was amazing. The same time I found that video was also a point where I wasn't doing well mentally (I'm still not but it's getting better, especially since I'm taking today to rest), and that song helped me a LOT. It inspired me a lot to start playing guitar and now I really want to, but I don't have a guitar ;-;

My dad has one, I might ask him if I can borrow it since he doesn't use it, but I don't really wanna take that from him, for various reasons. Regardless though, every time I hear a song I like I just think of how amazing it would sound on guitar, and how it would feel to play it. Singing is also fun but I'm not good at it at all :P My boyfriend says I have an amazing voice (I sing along to songs sometimes but not full on singer type singing) and I think that's cute. Singing is really fun but I don't think I'd perform in front of anyone.

Speaking of music, Evanescence came to Vancouver in October AND I DIDNT FUCKING GO. I wanted to soo fucking bad, the tickets at the time were only like $90 anyways, and for a concert at Rogers Arena that's a great price, but it was around the end of term 3/beginning of term 4 so we were busy ;-; but I really wish I went. Like, fuck school, I grew up listening to Evanescence because my dad introduced me to them. I'd kill to go back in time and tell myself to go see them. I saw a clip of them playing a few songs and I'm so sad ;-;

Also, Shadow Generations came out and I got the Japanese pre-order :3

It's really fun so far, As someone who never got to play sonic generations, I'm having a lot of fun playing that on top of the shadow bit of the game. I haven't played it THAT much (again, school :P), but I'm gonna play it a lot over the break :D

I think that's about it, if anyone other than me read this, thank you for listening to me yap :3