In this blog i will mainly be talking about my life, how things are going and shit like that, idk if people on here even read blogs that much but im doing this mostly for myself anyways so it doesn't really matter ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (give a kudos if you have read this so ik)

08.12.2024| Hope is a Dangerous thing

First Entry in here, probably won't update this regulary, maybe once a month or when something major happens in my life that is noteworthy of informing ya'll about. So yeah, life has been treating me pretty good recently! I finished all three presentations i had open for school and now there is absolutely NOTHING stopping me from enjoying that sweet sweet Christmas spirit (Well maybe the absolute lack of snow here in germany but thats about it). Man, this Year was absolutely wyld though. I was drunk for the first time in april on an family party, wich was pretty funny since it wasn't that much (maybe like 1,5 liters of beer), it ended with two of my friends escorting me back home from the restaurant we celebrated it in. They weren't invited there btw, they just came there for fun because they were out that evening and knew that that family party was there. Second time drunk was last week actually :|  My stupid ass for some reason thought it would be funny to give my fathers Rum collection a little try. Long story short, it ended with me waking up, seeing that i vomited anywhere on the ground but the bucket my parents put beside my bed. I don't even remember that i drank so much, i only took like 4 gulps or something from every bottle (OK MAYBE THAT IS MUCH CONSIDERING EVERY BOTTLE HAD ATLEAST 35% ALCOHOL). I was goddamn lucky that my parents were chill with it and didn't even really scold me, they just told me to be carefull with alcohol of that kind, especially with an empty stomach. Maybe they didn't give me any punishments because they went through the same when they were teens XD, my Mom literally told me a story of how she drank massive amounts  of wine on her youth consecration to "rinse her stomach". Ended up with her laying on a carpet, laughing while constantly sipping out of an wine bottle she had in her hand. One time i was at an house party one of my friends invited me in. I knew allmost nobody there (except my friend of course) but it was still hella fun! The party took place in the garden of some guy named Darwin. He was rlly nice and even gave me one of his hoodies for the day because i forgot my jacket, absolute G. It was funny as hell seeing everybody around you get more and more drunk as the party goes on (i didn't drink anything that day because i lost all my appetite for alcohol for a few months after getting drunk for the first time. I also smoked my first jibby that day, well, not really. Not really because there was barely any weed in it, it was like 80% nicotine so i didn't feel much besides slight dizzines, but hey, beggars ain't choosers. I think this will be it for my first entry on here, its getting late and i have school tomorrow. With that said, stay tuned and Ginger Out!

 29.04.2025| Yeah!? What's It Tuba!?

 So much for updating this blog once a month, yeah im a lazy fuck you don't have to tell me...Anyways this entry won't be as big as the first one. A few things happened in those allmost 5 months that i will be telling ya about. So, the first and probably most important thing is that, well, i have a girlfriend now! Her name's Emely, she goes to the same school as me. It all started like end of last year when Jonas, a friend fro m the same class as her told me she had a crush on me. I didn't really know her before that except her name so i stayed pretty passive about it. A few days later she started approaching me on the schoolyard and we came into contact, wich ultimately led to us now beeing a realtionship! Ofc there's a little bit more detail on what happened, but not really anything unusual adressing here. I really, really really really really really love her, like really really! I love her long dark hair especially, everytime i see her i just wanna hug her and never let go! Im allso very glad that i seem to have a positive impact on her, in many aspects. One time she told me: "Since I met you, I've been living more in the present world and focusing on what's happening today. I've even been thinking the sun hasn't been so bad lately. With you, I feel stronger and simply better than before.", wich really gave me a huge confidence boost. A little context: She sadly had a very abuse step dad who frequently verbally abused her (and even indirectly sexually abused), wich led to her developing anxiety disorder. That son of a bitch also called Lenny fat, so if i ever get a free hitman this guy would be the first to be killed. Anyways, live has been good on me, getting a cute girlfriend, summer holidays, that kinda stuff. Im really scared for my school grades though, because i got really bad ones in math and chemistry the last few weeks so i think im fucked...Other than that they should be good though! Also if you asked yourself "Why tf is this guy talking about summer holidays when he wrote this in april? Is he stupid?" Fear Not! I actually jsut fucking forgot that i started writing this midway through and picked up on it today (9.06). I think this is gonna be it for this chapter, im not really in the mood for writing rn... See ya!