Fresh Regrets, Vodka sweats.

You watched me ruin my life with things you told me not to pick up.

 i dont know why you stayed. i guess you were never there to begin with.

 dating but you had someone else when i needed you.

you called me selfish for being upset.

California sunsets dont look the same.

the amount of nights i begged for 5 minutes of your time.

after i left you held me better than you ever had.

told me you didnt want me drinking myself to death and i shouldnt love you.

but all i did for a year after i had to leave you was drink and cry.

terrified ill run into you some days. its been almost 2 years since we broke up.

i dont love you anymore. just miss hearing you.

i begged to know why i spent a year in second place to her.

at least i had spoken up. never got to.

every time i got mad i just wanted to spend time with you

ive been writing for almost 20 minutes.

miss you. hope she gives you what i couldnt even if you never told me what it was.