crush??? // rant TT..

there’s this boy in my class who’s kind of an enigma..? he’s popular but super quiet—way quieter than his friend group.. unlike them, he’s reserved, respectful, and, well… really cute. but here’s the thing: i’m quiet too! (TT)

somehow, we always end up on opposite sides of the classroom. if i’m on the left, he’s on the right; if i’m at the front, he’s at the back. honestly, i don’t even know if he knows my name. every girl in class seems to either like him or has liked him at some point, and i get it. he’s sweet, kind, handsome, respectful—basically the whole package..:C

even though we’re always far apart, i somehow keep making eye contact with him. but who knows? he’s probably looking at one of my more popular friends and I’m just imagining things (TT) still, i catch myself staring when he’s not looking, and sometimes i even wait for him to look away during those fleeting moments of eye contact.. he probably thinks i’m weird, hahaaa..

we’ve been classmates for two years, and i’ve only ever said one word to him—when we ended up as groupmates for a project. i don’t even know if this is a crush, but i can’t stop thinking about him..