Love of my loss

let me save you the  sweat and tears

of me and myself overworking for years

because maybe im not the brightest, but you've got to see

what seems to be logical, him or me?

most people would say, the one with the brawns

the looks, the style, virtually no cons

but honestly if there was anyone i would want him to be

it would be someone better

better than me

Dear love of my loss, i hope you're okay

i'm sorry for the departure, you know i couldn't ever stay

the agonizing false mantras in my mind

and the thoughts i get of you, how i hate when they intertwine

all i ever wanted was to care for you

all i ever wanted was to show you whats new

all i ever wanted was to make you to see

that even if you left they should be better

better than me

its all i can think of

the loss of comfort

the difference, the weakness lost from what was above

i cant help but rage at how much that guy seems like dirt

i'm fine with being platonic

i'm fine with returning to the normality

but what i honestly think is ironic

is that by dating him you changed the formality

Were your standards lowered?

was that what you wanted?

KM, my best friend

i think you just want to pretend, you aren't the love of my loss.

i want you to be with someone better

if it isn't me, somebody better.

why that guy. why not someone better

even though i left, i thought whoever you chose could be better

better than me.

i've asked people in my mind about you

and explained the situation in full detail

no matter how i frame the situation about us two

they always say, i should go after you.

maybe they're right, maybe they're not

maybe i'm right, maybe i'm not.

should i really break

the last living thread of my connection?

or should i stay stagnant and friendly

no longer needing you under my protection.

our portals divide us

a hazy glimpse into world so close, yet so far.

i never realized that someone so dear

could be in the reaching distance of a star

I could be your Golden dog

Running Rampant all over the internet

But everybody knows that this Blackened cat

is nothing more than a Queen of dates, heart wielding maniac

how could i ever believe

something so obscene?

when a girl like you would be a dream

to any guy in this world, don't you see what i mean?

i don't understand how this all happened.

how i got here

is no case of ever being poisoned

a sweet girl like you never did any wrong

all their claims, definitely came from something else going on.

i know what you desire is physical

and although i feel like you're a mythical Miracle

KM, best friend till the end

Thinking of what we were, thinking of everything we would send

the constant happiness, the thoughts of yours that i genuinely enjoyed to mend

my needle and thread nothing more than average

but my skillful stitches and mind way beyond my years

were something i loved to do, no matter the situation with you.

its no mistake i care

from the past and present, the future in the air.

so if our time was truly done

why not get with someone better?

better than me

KM, Best friend forever

i cant help but feel as if you really are

The love of my loss