IMPULSIVE THOUGHTS

GOOOOOD if only I coul turn back in time and avoid from doing stupid things just for the sake of momentary shit... I promised to quit smoking, I didn't, I promised that I'd only use Molly once, I didn't, I promised to save money, I didn't.

Like, the only one who should be changing is me, no one can change for me, but IT'S SO FRUSTRATING when you don't even know where to begin, things are a mess, I'm a mess, I'm sick and I seriously don't know what to do. Posting it here is safer than anywhere else bc I don't have any irl friends that can see this.

Being alone with my own thoughts isn't always the best thing to do, it consumes me in the wrong way everytime... At least is a time for self reflection, I need that time, but I hate it.

Anyway...

A bunch of words with no meaning, I was just venting for some self comfort. 

I'll get through my shit eventually, let the flu go away at least.