For my fellow freaks . Have you guys actually held a beeting heart?

I held a actually alive heart and its such a good feeling.

I DONT GO AROUND KILLING PPL I SWEAR. My neighbours went fishing and gave my mom a fish , quit big and still very much alive. My mom gutted it and somehow left the heart like intact and perfectly cut and for some reason i just decided to take it in my hand . It feels so alive ( OFC IT WILL CUZ IT WAS ) you wouldnt be able to recreat this with any way . The beating was very iregular , cuz ofc the heart was out of the body . But even how small it was it feels like somehow being hugged , more so every hug you ever had in your hand . Its just such a mesirizeing feeling . I can still very much recall the exact place in my hand it was . Then i got to wonder how would it feel to hold one of a cow or a human . A humans heart is mostly exactly a fistfull , perfectly fitting into your hand . that persons hole life and story , all the love it recived , right there . It must feel so good .

• !Question1: Can anyone actually relate ? Like to the feeling that i described , the closeness ?

• !Question2: Is this the seed of a mental problem , like will i start haveing even more wiered thoughts , cuz i feel thinking about holding a humans beeting heart to give you warmth and comfort to be normal?

Thats all my lovelies , dont judge i am on the internet to ask the internet problems and give the internet thoughts .