FRIENDS

Right now is like midnight. Tomorrow will be officially my last day of school. And I....

I DONT FEEL ANYTHING. AND THAT BOTHERS ME A LOT, LIKE  :D

My whole life is changin and im just like "chill xd" BUT I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDNT?? 

Life is going to be waayy harder, the world is going to turn inside out and against me (at least, thats what everyone else says) and im just like "yey no more homework" LIKE, WHY.

Im not even sad for the whole leaving school and the teachers and idk, and stuff bcs I´ve been in this school for only 2 years.

But idk... mmm to be honest, i dont want to talk about the school to univeristy transition bcs... idk, thats not on my mind lately, so it wont feel very natural to write about it. 

What I want to talk about, is about friends.

Bcs today I had a very fun day with my friends and with the rest of my classmates, and it really made me realize: "I´ll miss them" "I´ll miss these days"

Bcs after school there are MANY chances that we wont see again XD. But it wont be from one day to another, it will be a slow transition. We´ll start to hang out less (even less than we already do) and eventually, we´ll lose contact. 

To be honest Im surprised by the fact that I´m "ok" with it. Bcs Im 100% sure that my me from 2 or even 1 year ago would had a complete mental breakdown cus of that fact. I would have been in denial and in crisis, wishing for that future to never happen, that they´ll never go and everything will stay the same. But now I know, or at least i have accepted, that life its not that way. At least not completly obviously xd.

My friends are awesome, REALLY AWESOME!!1! THEY ARE THE BEST!1!! And who knows? maybe I´ll keep in contact with most of them! bcs that can surely happen, of course! But I guess, that whathever happene in this year xd, just made me more ""free"". If the time and life decides to make them go different ways, then I wont interfier. If thats the way they can fulfill their goals and dreams, THEN GO GIRLY! XD dsdssdsd That is a change in me that I was not very aware of until a few time ago. 

Its ok if they have to go, thats just life. I think, (well, mostly I feel) that everything will be alright. Gotta stay calm xd.

I really wish my friends the best of wishes!! i really wish for them to be happy no matter what! 

I am really glad for all the time I could spent with them, for the chance of meeting these amazing people! I am very glad and happy for that. BUUUUT, as the tittle says xd . There´s still some time before my official last day, and I want to see how much my mind can change in this hours so xd. I´ll see ya!!

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After my graduation ceremony.

It´s been like 3 days? after my graduation and I still not very sure of how do I feel.

I think im still with the "chill" feeling, but now is a bit more with sadness???? i dk how to explain it. 

I dont think a lot has changed. I still think that life and time will do their job and with the time my friends will drift apart from me, and that thats ok. I love them, very much, and it was the best gift I could have to meet them, to have such good memories witht them. And im very glad with that. They are going to be one of the cooles stories I´ll have, and I hope that for them ill be one too.The weird, exhausting, amzaing and cary adventure of school has ended, and now a new one, completly different starts. Not necessarily it´s going to be college, but just a new life in general.Funny thing, idk what to write xd and I have a lot of things to say.

Well, maybe is better if for now I say goodbye and thanks to the people who read this looong trash xd my blogs are not usually that long xd