GOOD LAWD!! (a rant)

Ugh. 

That is all I will put as a header. I've been SO stressed lately due to school work and, putting it frankly, MEDIOCRE drama! Techically it's """""interesting""""", it keeps my close friends from boredom, but I straight up DGAF anymore unless it's something serious like SA or jail. I'm too old to be dealing with people who still use insults and "comebacks" in their arguments.

Anyways, today was my breaking point. Lowkey, most days feel like I'm near a mental breakdown but today was the one!! oh goodie!! Oh GREAT HEAVSN!!!! I realized how much work yet so little time I have to get them complete (DEADASS I have 8 papers, not counting the big packet, and a whole ass COLLEGE-LIKE ESSAY + GOOGLE SLIDES PRESENTATION DUE TUESDAY>). SHOULD I MENTIONED I ONLY SKIPPED MONDAY? DEADASS THE DAY AFTER THANKSGIVING BREAK?. Going on, I ended up sobbing rat-like squeaks, pulling back my hair as I tried to form words when I got home. My father tried consoling me the best way he knew but eventually pulled out the "Oh you think you're stressed NOW? just WAIT til you get older.", like fuck man, I get what your saying is GENERALLY true but good lord... I feel like you've never experienced the stress of Trying to Make The Funny Numbers Go Up Game. The stress of Trying to Keep Up With Your Workload OR ELSE You'll Dig Yourself Deeper Game. 

However, despite all I've typed, I'm doing alright. Or at least "better" than I was Freshman year lolol. My father invited me to "destroy stuff" in the backyard... and it was fun! He found my old BB gun he gave me when I was 13, and we just shot at spray paint cans. I've also been watching Arcane (my gawd it's SO GOOD.) and currently on EP6 of Season 2!!! I'm so glad I have so many friends interested in the show as well, its nice for a change compared to finding homesick fans irl.

I'm actually planning to write a few blog posts abt Arcane, however I'll probably have to rewatch the show for journalistic integrity LMAO. Feel free to message me abt the show........ ^___^