ok, got my karma and now im suffering what he suffered

Im sure youre pretty happy now

But its just... why?

Why cant i ever have a nice fucking day?

Why cant i ever be happy without feeling at the end like shit?

Why am i like this?

Why do I keep making this mistakes? Why do i keep upseting the people that love me?

And the people who barely know me, and say im a great person, am i? Am i a good person? Do i deserve their care? 

Why is he always so cold? Why does he act like my feelings never matter? Like my tears are not important? Why does he act like im not something that matters to him? Do i not matter to him? Does he not care, at all, about my feelings? Does he think im just someone who acts by impulse?

I DONT KNOW WHY I AM THIS WAY!!!!!!!

I ALSO DONT KNOW WHY AM I LIKE THIS!!!!!!! I CANT ANSWER THAT QUESTION EITHER!!!!

AND THE WORST PART IS THAT NOW I CANT EVEN TELL THEM HOW MY DAY WENT BECAUSE I RUINED IT ALL

I RUINED THE DAY AS ALWAYS

What are they thinking about me now? That im a pussy? That im weak? That im stupid? That they REALLY are better off without me?

WHY DO I ALWAYS RUIN MY RELATIONSHIPS

I AM GOING TO END UP ALONE FOREVER AM I?

Why do I keep crying? I know no one is listening, but I keep crying

Im not bad, I didnt mean to do those things in a bad way, I want them to trust me, Im their child they should trust me, but i have broken their trust way to many times, and yet they're still always there, WHY, WHY IF I DONT DESERVE ANYTHING YOU DO TO ME

WHY DO PEOPLE LOVE ME WHEN I DONT DESERVE IT

I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS, UNDESERVED, DEPRIVED, MISSERABLE, BUT I CANT STOP, IT DOESNT STOP, I WANT IT TO END BUT I CANT STOP IT, THEY JUST KEEP COMING

I HOPE YOU REALLY ARE FUCKING HAPPY I HOPE YOU ARE YOU FUCKING IDIOT