12/4/24

school is so boring. i wish i knew more people in real life instead of online. at least i made a 100 on my final so its okay but it gets pretty lonely. I'm especially nervous for the fact that I have play in two days and have ZERO lines memorized </3  also I'm acting in front of 3rd graders and they are always SO MEAN :,) also I hate the fact that I get jealous of people online so fast, i cant wait to get a job so i that if I'm in my room all the time at least I'll be comfy in there ( especially if I'm surrounded by ritsu and konata figures >:3 ) i mean i cant do anything but dream but i guess that isn't too bad. OH i also hate how mean people can be, like not talking to me is enough TRUST ME. i just don't get it, i never bother them so why bother me? just keep ignoring me instead of saying something. i have been having a hard time staying awake in class and being motivated, my classes are easy thankfully so i just sleep in all of them.

I also need more games to occupy myself, i mean i could start playing fps games instead so i can actually get good at them instead of humiliating myself in front of my online friends. its hard to keep playing games when you keep failing tho :< i need to stay motivated though  OH MY ATTENTION SPAN IS HORRIBLE TOO, i need to catch up on so many animes but oh lord my attention span is going to kill me before i even play an episode. 

anyway that was my day today