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"AAA, what the heck is this? Why do I have to go through this? How I hate my grandmother, but at the same time, I love her. She’s driving me crazy :( with her perfectionist syndrome (that’s when someone prioritizes studying over health, specifically mental well-being). I used to live with my grandparents, and everything was fine until she started pushing me more with schoolwork... Even though now I live with my mom, and everything seems okay, my grandmother, instead of asking how I am, talks about my homework, whether I’ve done it. She has never once called just to talk, NEVER. And then she asks why I don’t call them...? I’m so fed up, if it weren’t for my grandmother, maybe I’d be friends with my classmates? I had one friend, but she betrayed me... And my classmates don’t care, the only thing they care about is copying answers. T_T. I have no one to complain to, so I’m just venting to you... Sometimes I feel like I’m exaggerating, like I’m just weak and can’t handle my problems, but... I still need support, right? I’m a person like everyone else, so why am I not needed by anyone?

I’m sorry if I’m complaining, I really am, I just have no one at all... Well, except for my little sister, but she’s too young to understand and offer support... My mom might think badly of me, I’m too ashamed to talk to my dad, and I feel embarrassed in front of teachers and counselors too. I have my personal diary, but it doesn’t help anymore..."T_T