blogging again because yea...

I hate the fact that i have to work in order to live or supposedly "make money". I'm starting to hate leaving my house and dealing with the general public. People lack kindness Online and in public. Why is being nice suddenly "cringe" I don't get it all and also I work at a library where the public goes to read, browse the internet or be a fucking weirdo towards to me and my coworkers. First it's the old people who have no filter to what they do and say, then it's the irresponsible adults who act like the library is a starbucks or cafe just to be loud as hell and then it's the snot nosed children causing trouble without adult supervision. The more I deal with people the more it makes me wanna quit my job and never leave my house ever again. 

For me I get overstimulated whenever I go out because I am diagnosed with ASD (autism spectrum disorder) and the I have to "mask" because the public hates or makes fun of disabled people like myself. I went to Target recently and I forgot my apple airpods and I had to LISTEN to all of the annoying sounds that target usually gives me such as babies/toddlers having meltdowns, electronic noises (beeping sounds and work phones) and too many people talking because Target gets overcrowded where I live. 

So this a just a little rant. >-<