living in loneliness (vent)

i have never been more free in my entire life. school is over, and a lot of the pressure on my shoulders is too. ive making music, coding, drawing and working on all my projects. but at the same time, i never felt so lonely, and that kinda makes everything redundant. no matter what i do, im always wishing to see my dear friend again. she really liked my songs, and me as a person, but she decided to leave my life in august. and im just miserable now, i can try to do anything but it never solves the pain i feel everyday.
i think ill never feel loved like that again.