misc thoughts on the ephermalness of the internet

today i had a day off from work. I got really high last night, so I still felt pretty chilled out today, so i stayed in and thought about a lot of my online connections in the past.

i scrolled through my steam comments, looking back at ones from over 10+ years ago. 2014, 2013.. and i wondered where those people are now. we had friendships and did so much stuff together, what do they do now? there's so many people i wish i could tell them how they impacted me.

i looked on wayback machine at my profile in those years ago and reminiscing about the weird shit id write on it that i thought was cool, songs i put on it. its funny looking back at it, the culture at the time was so much different. I think modern internet culture is a lot more respectful, which is saying a lot considering its still shitty; that is to say, it was even worse back then. while people on the internet only recently learned about accountability, there existed a time when it didnt really exist. 

but now there's some sort of nostalgia for that time period. Its hard for me to bash it considering thats basically what I spent my day indulging in, but I find it dangerous due to how much time you can spend getting invested on revisiting old shit. thats time you couldve done something new! but here i am, using my entire day to do that lol.. 

im going to go out later tonight i think. im gonna go to a local cafe and play my ds and have a hot chocolate. that way today wasnt a complete waste!