ANNOUNCEMENT: MY WEBSITE IS TEMPORARILY CLOSED!

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hello everyone, 

haven't seen you in a while huh. u probably didn't miss me either, but that's alright.

so far life has been a boring mess with no direction or way to fully entertain myself, constantly distracting myself with my phone with instagram open, doomscrolling my time away. i'm no longer even thinking twice abt the videos i watch, i just consume like the other billions of sheeps on this levitating rock in space. atleast i'm not alone ig.

i got humbled in school again today, in PE. we didn't get to pick teammates, which has upset them, cuz they couldn't pick the best ones ofc 😒. this time they even called me a dickhead, straight on. just bcuz i'm not good at sports. and btw, i was a goalkeeper and in the end, i wasn't that bad. but nobody gave a fuck.

i'm talking to a friend group i used to be in, since i haven't really interacted with them in any way for almost half a year. only one of the girls, who i always trusted with myself and so i wasn't afraid to talk to her even after some time. for a long time i wasn't really feeling like i belonged to the group, most likely bcuz it was a girl group. but they always accepted me.

grades have been also pretty trash as of late. its not that im not studying, i guess i just can't focus enuff to pass the test.

i seriously don't know what's the matter with me. there's no point to this life. it's unfullfilled, blank. i seem to be stuck in a middle point while everybody is going directions.

the noose around my neck is starting to tighten.