does my crush like me???

okay so, i dont know am i being delusional or just blind but ive been wondering does my crush like me back .....

so, lemme tell EVERYTHIMNG

im currently 15, in 9th grade. i have been with the same people in my class since pre-school, so currently 9 years ! theres this boy, who i have never rly been friends with neither rly cared about him, he was just yk like air to me. until now...

when 9th grade started, i began to notice him looking at me at times, at first i didnt think much of it. but then he would do it more and more and i started questioning it to myself, thinking is something wrong in my look??? pin falling off hair???? false lash badly glued??????? makeup shedding????? LIKE WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT????????????? and thats when i thought,, maybe he has a little crush on me...???? AND OH BOY I WAS SO CONVINCED HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME.

 i am kind of an attention starved little bitch, ive never had a boyfriend, ive always had an absent father and 0 male friends and -4 male interactions.. i do try to talk to boys too... but they dont seem to wanna talk to me. and no, im not ugly. i actually think im pretty average for a 15yo girl. i do have some ugly features, like my nose and chin. but dont we all??? a couple of unpretty features wont make you unapproachable.... but back to the point, i think me not getting any male attention made me fall in love with him when he just looked at me... sounds kinda sad..

but, i dont understand. he stares at me, IN EVERY CLASS POSSIBLE. i tried to follow him on insta, it took him so long to accept the follow request but even then he didnt even request to follow me back ... :( like i dont understand?? WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT???????????????? 

uhh now that i write it.. it kinda just sounds like i was being really fucking delusional about him. but i never even realized hes actually just my type:( 

we have same music taste, same humour, GLASSES >_<, and hes taller than me.. UGHGHGHDUSIDEFYHUWSD AND AND NOW THAT I LIKE HIM, IVE BEEN STARTING TO STARE AT HIM BACK AND IM DEAD HE HAS CAUGHT ME LOOKING SOOOO MANY TIMES 

but everytime we make eye contact, he bquickly breaks it, looks down, and then looks back at me to see if i looked away. he also does this: when he makes his friends laugh he turns to me to see if i saw it LMAOOO i find it cute.

but he doesnt look for me. he doesnt follow me around like i follow him. wherever he goes i wont be far too long away bcs i quite literally follow and look for him in school.. and whenever im in public, i hope to see him. ive seen him couple of times in public and he always smiles and waves to me, and i do the same. it makes me rly happy !!! :3

maybe hes scared i find out he likes me so hes giving mixed signals to top it off..? or maybe its not true and he just stares at many people.. i dont know.... ugh