friend paranoia part 56

Its been weeks or maybe a month of feeling super paranoid about my current friends. 

I mean, its normal to have doubts, but I feel that I have extreme feelings towards them sometimes. 

I can't shake off the feeling that they hate me and they are only friends because they are forced to... or that they feel bad. I can't stop thinking about how they might actually hate me and just pretend to tolerate and be good friends with me. 

I am so confused and lost with how to handle people. Sometimes I'm so paranoid to the point that I think that some people aren't real. Like they are so hard to understand, or I feel so frustrated with myself because I can never "get" people. I'm a person too, and I try to empathize a lot and analyze their life and behavior, but sometimes I just feel so dumb. I can really not get it, or people just really hate me!!!!!!

Oh well ill probably just look it up on google but ill talk to my guidance counselor abt it.