Not a man, just a child.

I'm so tired of people that I don't understand why some people start acting like idiots just because they're bored.

It's been a while now that emotional matters both friendly and romantic are becoming too complicated. On the one hand with my family, although I know that they do the best they can and strive daily to make me okay, they always stay on the superficial branch, I can wear myself out for hours trying to explain to them how I feel and why I am like this, but they don't understand, they choose the easy way of just checking me into a day hospital, and not satisfied with that, they dedicate themselves to belittling my lifestyle on a daily basis, any explanation is quickly ignored since it's not what they want to hear, so they change the subject. On the other hand, my partner... well, let's just say that sometimes he doesn't know how to respect the fact that I can have more relationships outside of him, and then he walks away and starts being rude to me. I wish I could tell him everything I have in my throat, about all the things that bother me, but I'm unable to. I also know that he won't understand, so it's the same as wasting time. I love him, or at least he thinks he's sure of that, but I'm starting to question the reason for that feeling, the why, it's that simple. I've always understood that someone who loves you doesn't treat you badly or lie to you, and while the first reason is something intermittent, the second is daily, and constant, all the time bothering me with a thousand things, I've never told him that I question the veracity of what he tells me, because it's something that can be misinterpreted, and taken the wrong way, but I don't like people laughing in my face either.

Let's say that I want to leave this text simple, it mentally tires me out too much to think about this kind of things.

I wish I had had time to finish the joint hahaha