Literally f*ck this guy.

Around 2022 i met this boy thanks to a instagram story that a friend of mine told me about. This story was about a girl trying to get his friend together with someone else. At the time i kind of wanted to be in a relationship with someone so i accepted talking to this guy.                                 He was sweet at first, a little akward but i still thought he was cute. Hours passed and he already told me "i love you" when i couldnt say his name correctly because i didnt learn his name correctly at the time. Anyways, we talked for some weeks  and, i admit, i was starting to get my hopes up. i started to let some things slide like that one time that he told me he was, and i quote;

>I'M KINDA GETTING EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO YOU.<

AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET OUT OF THERE but i didnt, because i really liked him.

One day we actually met! it was in the house of a friend's girlfriend's house. we were both shy at first but we opened up step by step. we went on a walk, we talked, we kissed yada yada. Then we went back to the house one thing led to another and i ended up having my first sexual experience in a service room. At the time i didnt care, but now i do. Why the fuck didnt i tell him "dude we are NOT gonna do this here" why did i let him continue?? he didnt sexually harrased me or something im just mad at both of us because i, along with him, ruined my first experience.

Some weeks passed and i started to notice some stuff. whenever something told us something like "you look so cute together!" he would say stuff like "we are not boyfriends" almost screaming it. that kinda made me sad but i didnt say anything. he also started to love bombing me a lot on our last few days as a "situationship".

One day we met eachother again for a date, it was a good date actually it wasnt that bad. after the date we went to my house we did some stuff and then he left. Some days after that i showed him my new wallpaper, it was a photo of us. After that he didnt answer me, he left my messages on read, and no matter how much i begged him to answer me he only left me on read. During that i decided it i was gonna end our situationship with or withoun an answer from him. Hours later before i even started to gather courage to block him he answered me. He told me that he thought that we were going to fast (wich yeah we were but he started it so fuck you) and that he wanted to take things slower, I agreeda and changed my wallpaper. Then he started venting about how much I confused him, he started saying how he USED ME and then he said that he wasnt using me and a lot of other stuff that didnt make sense or were contradictory. Long story short i insulted him in all the lenguages and colours that i knew and blocked him.

Some time after i found out that this guy was not only the school Wh*re with literally all the guys of his school but also that he used me (well this last part is actually a realization) to get all that love and affection, both sexual and romantic, out. And coincidentally i was there wanting someone.