i'm DRUNK!

i don't even have much to say but i've had more than a few shots wanted to make a blog post so here's how my life is going.

today is december 1st, 2024.

on november 13th, someone who i love  loved dearly broke up with me. i understand his reasoning, and although it hurt both of us, it was for the best. it still hurts.

on november 18th, i was diagnosed with epilepsy and mesial temporal sclerosis. my right frontal lobe is too small and i have multiple seizures a day. i can't drive anymore, which means i can't work, and it totally sucks. i feel trapped within my own home.

on november 24th, i decided to move to florida (temporarily, at least) and stay with my dad. he's the greatest. i'll be staying in his office, which he's turning into a bedroom for me, and living with him, my stepmom, and my 8 year old brother. i am so thankful for my family. they bought me an annual pass to disney world, so i'll have something to do to pass the time. i think i'll be happier there.

on november 28th, i met up with one of my online friends for the first time. we went shopping in manhattan and had so much fun. it was a little awkward at first, but they're really cool and i had a great time. they haven't texted me since then, though, so i'm a little worried that they didn't enjoy my company. that would really suck. regardless, we're attending an event together in january, so i hope that goes well.

on november 29th, i finally started the second draft of the immersive play that i'm contracted to write. i love writing, and i especially love writing immersive theatre for children. i'm so lucky to be able to do something that i'm passionate about (even if the pay isn't great) but i've been struggling to stay motivated. the deadline for my second draft is on wednesday morning (two short days from now!) so i'm really hoping that i'll be able to get my work done by then.

right now, on december 1st, at 1:24am, i'm writing this post and hoping that things will get better. i'm trying to remind myself that, despite my illness, i have potential and i have a bright future ahead of me. i always try to be a positive person, but it's been very hard lately. i'm struggling deeply with even more than is mentioned in this post. i know i have good things and good people in my life, though, and i will continue to hold onto those.

if you're still reading this, thank you. it's nice to think that i'm actually talking to someone.