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Y'know it's not that i'm a teenager but I think that maybe hiding feelings for a long time will in fact affect you later (yea I'm discovering the earth is round) I can remember being a teenager and feeling sad about everything and thinking how great will be dying, I want to point out about the feeling on it because tbh right now I'm just tired and angry
I let a heart there to put a bit of color here, my mother used to say that only lazy people would think about dying and maybe she's right this time, I'm just tired and want to sleep forever, tbh I don't want to deal with anything else, not the fact that I don't like myself physically, or deal with my mediocre grades, or feel insecure inside but not finding a way to calm myself, maybe deal with my mother, father, sister... too much to think tbh and of course right now I'm losing time cuz I have a project for monday,what a shitty life can't say anything else pls don't think that I have tears on my face just a boring ass face, yes there's a reason behind this thought but is no use talking about it, I just want to feel warm in my bed hugging the pillow and that's all, maybe a hug of a real person will do but...if there's only compromise the hug will felt like nothing, maybe I just want to feel as if someone care about me, anyways I have one year left until I graduate, it'll be funny looking at adults faces and maybe one of those is me with my boring ass face wanting to end it all but I can't because I have responsabilities, feels like a joke, miserable right?
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nootcla
Many times, parents play down their childβs emotions because they have too much pride in themselves as a parent and admitting that the person they raised might have struggles makes them feel like they have failed in some way. In reality, being depressed isnβt a failure in itself. Of course, it's no success either. The real success (At least in my mind) is riding life out and finding peace. I really hope you can find that peace in your life. I feel like what I am saying might not be helpful but if you take something from it that's great too. I see remnants of myself in this post. Healing is different for everyone especially due to circumstances. I'm not saying I have shit figured out and not saying things out of pity, just hoping this is a helpful perspective and I'm sorry if it is not. I don't wanna sound like I'm trying to say "Just be happy" you know?
tbh your comment is totally right, life doesn't go around us and knowing we're not the main characters of it can hurt, I learnt not blaming my mother but sometimes can be hard, your coment doesn't feel as a "just be ok" btw, in fact it made me quite emotional because of he right choose of words, tysm for reading the midnight post and leaving the message it really made me think about my point of view βΊβΊ
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xxRebellious_Emmaxx
That doesn't sound like laziness, it sounds like depression. It is an illness that steals all of your motivation and energy away from you most of the time, and in some cases, can even make simple things such as moving difficult if it causes your limbs to feel like they've suddenly become leaden weights.
I've had months on end stolen from me due to this internal demon between the ages of 13 - 17 years old. I've been in my longest remission from it so far for over a year now (since maybe late September/early October 2023) and still live with the fear of relapsing eventually and the haunting memories of some of the worst times of my life.
Unfortunately, most people don't understand what it's like to have to endure this sort of hell as we make up a minority of the overall population and usually become ignorant as a result.
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life is hard, it feels harder as a teen tho. your feelings are valid, but i can confidently say, being a teenager definitely heavily contributes more than teenagers ever like to admit LOL because regardless, its how they feel. here if u ever need to talk
it's a hard time right, all the feelings and emotions as teenagers, good luck in that time you have a lot to see, ty for reading my midnight post <3
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it's a hard time right, all the feelings and emotions as teenagers, good luck in that time you have a lot to see, ty for reading my midnight post <3
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